The loss of a loved one can bring many emotions you can go through many stages I found the one feeling, the emotion that stayed with me the longest and affected me the most was the feeling of Guilt. When my son died I can’t tell you how many times I asked myself If I had done things differently maybe my son would be here today, or Am I to blame for his death The guilt I felt was such a big part of my thoughts, life, Even when the doctors said Anything I did or didn’t do would not have changed the outcome and how I am feeling is natural grief process. which seemed like a life time to except that was correct, I then felt I would never recover from my loss How can you smile laugh and enjoy yourself again, I was correct I have never fully recovered I don’t believe my heart will ever be whole again but when I smile and laugh now I believe our loved ones who is looking down feel relive, My son is still a very big part of my life we talk of him all the time of Memories or the wonder of what he would be like had he been here, Privately I still feel my loss, my grief but I no longer feel guilt I can’t change what happened in the past I can only hope my son is at peace and he knows that I love and miss him dearly.
I know there are no words I could say to anyone who has lost a child that would help or ease that pain, I shared this to say you can smile and be happy again when that happens is when you are ready, there is no time limit to grief and loss.
To the those who have lost a loved one,
I Send Love, strength and the will to continue to keep fighting God bless