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Self Love

Learning to love yourself is a starting point to improve your life knowing you deserve a happier healthy positive life. 

When you have a very low opinion of yourself, any positive Love, friendships and kindness we block not believing it to be true. In fact, it’s hard to tell what is real and what is not.  

To change your life as you know it where you feel safe and protected is not easy this can be very scary and emotional, we stay in our safe zone even when we are not happy and is a negative environment because we fear the unknown, the truth, failing and getting it wrong, So how will you know if it was the best thing you ever did or you never felt happier, if you don’t make the change. if you are trying to improve your life even if you get it wrong your winning, we learn from our mistakes anything worth having will not come easy, you have to work hard keep trying so when you achieve your goals, dreams you will be grateful and blessed then you can be proud of yourself for making the changes, seeking a positive happy life 

write down what you would like to change 

Set yourself some small achievable goals

Do one positive thing a day,  

This is about your life, your journey, and your future

If your changes make others unhappy or they change towards you, Then make another change remove them from your life, A real friend will Love, encourage and support you unconditionally. 






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Don’t suffer in silence

Depression, anxiety or other mental health illness is nothing to be ashamed of, I never thought I would be able to manage or overcome mental health issues, I tried to cope on my own, one of the main reasons was I felt ashamed or I would be judged and worrying about what others would think of me, Admitting to myself that had a problem and seeking help was a relieve ” It is ok to be Happy again ” I am not saying there are any magic cures or easy fixes but your mental health can be managed, Seek help from your GP, Be honest with friends and family and if you are treated badly or judged for this even without a mental health illness  you should remove negative people from your life. 


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After lots of research and hard work to help myself to Heal and recover from past abuse, trauma, and grief from a great loss, I thought I would share with you what helped me to be able to be happy, have dreams and goals again.
Are you Ready!
If you know there a somethings in your life that no longer benefit you or what once made you so happy now makes you so sad,

Why don’t we just change it?
It’s not that easy, Fear off…
Coming out the Comfort Zone,
or regret, Getting it wrong,
Hurting people,
The list goes on and on.

Where do you start?
Excepting that you are not happy, areas of your life need to change or that a relationship or friendship is not working anymore is your starting point, sounds simple doesn’t it,
Apart from your fears, once you accept and acknowledge, you take away the option of hiding or pretending It Is not happening,
So making the first step is hard but very brave.
Being honest with yourself, accepting any responsibility for choices and decisions you may have made that contributed to your problem/issues you have today.
If you are suffering because of past Trauma or Abuse there is only one way to move forward,
There is nothing you can do to change the past,
no amount of If only, why’s, Guilt or blaming will make it better. except it, learn from it, and say out loud,
“I am no longer a Victim I am a Survivor”
Respecting yourself, Trusting, your feelings and thoughts.

What and who is real?
The lack of confidence, self-love meant I was open wide for people to disrespect and take advantage of my vulnerability for a very long time I believed that if you treat people well and respectful this is how I would be treated in return,
I got that wrong.
A real friend, someone who truly has your best interest at heart will support you, encourage you and be proud of you when you start to make positive changes, the only reason someone who suppose to love you, appreciate you would not show this support is because they do not want you to better or Improve yourself because they will no longer gain from your misfortune, misplaced loyalty Now we say out Loud,
“This is the road I am traveling down to better and improve myself and my Life you’re welcome to join me, if not all the best Goodbye”

Body Language

Until you can trust what your feeling and thoughts are saying again,
watch people’s body Language I relied on this for a very long time and even tho I trust my instinct completely,
I still watch what people are really saying from what their body is saying, Nothing goes past me :),
So many really underestimated me and felt like a Hero believing that I was fooled and unaware of their Underhand tactics because I never responded the reason for that is they are not relevant to my life and it’s more about their shitty self’s then me.

Crossed arms and legs signal resistance to your idea,
Real smiles crinkle your eyes,
A clenched jaw signals stress,
Lying.. Dry mouth, breathing pattern changes, go over the top to try to convince you,
Twiddling with a ring or their hair,
You may think you are not connected to your gut feelings but if something doesn’t feel right then go with that feeling because more often than not you will be right,
Over the years I learnt the hard way seeing and understanding people on a few occasions I have been very hurt, Until I know different I see all people the same they have the ability to treat me badly, people I thought would never hurt me broke my heart, also I felt very angry and Embarrassed that I was mugged off and they must have been laughing at me, That a friendship I trusted respected and loved for Many many years was fake wasn’t real, I have no hate or bad feeling Lesson learned move On
There are no shortcuts,
This is your journey, your dreams so there is no advice or opinion from anyone Friends, colleagues ETC you will need. (I don’t mean medical advice)
Self Love, self-respect and self-worth is what you are aiming for It looks easy when you see it written down.
This is a long journey one that can be emotional, frustrating and very sad,
To look at aspects of your life or experiences that you have buried for many years can make you want to give up and run back to your comfort zone as fast as you can,
“where is the f**king blindfold, the Brandy, and the sandpit to bury my head in“.
This can be a lonely time,
when I say you do not need others advice or opinions, please get the support, love, and Praise from trusted Family and friends,
You are making all the choices and decisions, you will get it wrong that makes you human, Now we say out Loud
“I Love and Respect myself That I do not seek or beg anyone’s Love, attention or friendship, Only positive and genuine people I want in my life, No second chances No exceptions”.

Get a diary or journal
Page 1… write down what you want to change, why and what has prevented you from making these changes, Fear off…..
Page 2. Small achievable goals to start, How are you going to achieve this goal? and what end result would you like.

Some of my past abuse for many years I buried and in a way convincing myself it had happened to someone else, If you are feeling like this, what I did was I wrote it down the first time it was still like I was writing about someone else’s life,
read it reread it until you feel able to write it knowing it is your experiences.

To be able to be at peace with yourself to enjoy your own company, to enjoy and want friendships but not have to rely on them you don’t have a Need for them so you can keep your standards high you don’t have to tolerate any form of disrespect Now you can say out loud
I am a strong Independent person, The Bitch returns.

Written by K.L.Smith, I have no medical experience what I have written is from my own personal experiences and research. I hope it can help people to believe in themselves, I am still healing and recovering I have so many things I still want to do We can achieve our Goals as long as we put the hard work in.

Everyone’s past, problems/issues are Different all as important, I believe you can help yourself in your recovery but please seek medical advice if you need to.


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Yes it is a little uncomfortable even a little Embarrassing, The Doctors/Nurses that are doing the screening must have seen all shapes and sizes, Fanny’s that is, I dread it when I know my smear is due because I feel like every other woman, But I still go, Living longer being able to spend time with my family making beautiful memories means more to me then a few moments of feeling uncomfortable and Embarrassed.

“How did my Mummy die”   “She was too Embarrassed to have a smear test” A bit harsh you may think but true, 

Women are being urged not to miss their smear tests as screening rates hit a 20-year low and a charity admits ‘the Jade Goody effect is long gone’.

Latest statistics show attendance of cervical screening in England is the lowest for two decades, having fallen to 72 percent. R.I.P. Beautiful Lady ❤


self help


Can be an issue and a set back In your life From eating too much,  not enough or being on a diet, If you have Low self Confidence, esteem and not happy with your body image without a Positive mind thoughts, it can be very hard to improve yourself and move on to a Happier Lifestyle.

If I’m completely honest If I hadn’t got unwell, I may still be lying to myself that I’m happy, as I was, Losing weight, can be so hard and soul destroying, Believe me, I tried everything, In the end, I lost weight from eating three meals a day, nothing in between and exercising, No not at the Gym, My son suggested to go swimming  My reply was “when I’ve lost my weight” lol

So I walked the dog, I swept the floors instead of Hoovering, running up and down the stairs, Put the music on Having a little boogie If you enjoy  a glass of wine save it to the weekend, I feel so much better in myself having more energy  and Motivation

Always eat breakfast even if it a smoothie And drink Lots Water.

Eating well and exercising is Taking care of yourself, even if your weight  is not an issue it is very important not to Disrespect your body and your Health

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To Improve yourself you have to look at your Flaws as well as your positive strengths I believe I may be the worlds best Sulker, not too bad at self Pity,  well until I realise no-one is taking any notice and just a  little bit dislike the word No. Moving on quickly, my point is if you have a negative thinking Patten it is very hard to get a positive outcome I may have said a few times over the years Why me? why doesn’t anything go right? mainly because I couldn’t think straight and always believed nothing would work.

Express yourself, let it go and Bin it and start again with a clear positive view on the issue or problem, that’s not easy, I hear you, It has taken me a good while to achieve this  and that’s because I was unsure how to express myself,  so thats when I begain to write it down, this really does  work, because you can be truthful, blunt and even rude, this is never going to be shared, The only problem I had was mine written on paper as I didn’t use the computer so I couldnt just delete them,   If any- one needs somewhere too Bin it I am offering my Email for anyone to let it go and I  will delete it strictly confidencial,  Then you can start to look for ways to help you Improve yourself or a situations you are not happy with.

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Positive Movement


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It’s Lovely to see the sun shining, The Beautiful flowers blossoming and Gods little Creatures Flying around but,

If you get bitten or stung and are worried go and see your GP or  My local Chemist is a lovely man and very Helpfull and they offer quite a few services.

Contact your GP or call NHS 111 for advice if:

Your symptoms don’t start to improve within a few days

You’ve been stung or bitten in your mouth or throat, or near your eyes

symptoms of a wound infection, such as pus or increasing pain, swelling or redness

Call 999 immediately

difficulty breathing

A swollen face, mouth or throat

Nausea or vomiting

Dizziness or feeling faint

Loss of consciousness

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I think its very hard to find a partner that you love and trust and their feelings are  mutual, So my personal opinion is If you find that in the same-sex relationship or age difference, (Never under age either sex and always mature enough to have a relationship) if you can find true Love and happiness I say go for it and enjoy.

In a lifetime I believe you only have one or two sexual partners that are”The One” you fit together and  connect in bed Feeling the most comfortable, Sexy Experimental and you may always compare the reason is,   you have never loved another  as deeply, passionately and complete as” The One ”  that’s not to say you can not have an amazing sex life with a new partner so don’t wait around for the hope you will find it again, believe me, you could be just missing out on a loving relationship On an If, but, and a maybe.

Do what makes you happy Never feel ashamed of wanting a loving healthy sexual relationship or if you don’t want one don’t just go along with that because you feel you should or pressured into it

Always practise safe sex if you are not in a long-term relationship and have regular sexual health checks  LOVING YOURSELF.



First signs

Scarlet fever usually starts with a rash on the chest or stomach before it spreads to other areas.


  • Sore throat
  • Headache
  • Swollen neck glands
  • Red body rash
  • Itchy skin
  • Red face
  • White or red tongue
  • High fever
  • Abdominal pain

What should you do?

Eating is painful for children with strep throat, so it’s best to serve them soft food and liquids. Make sure you kid drinks plenty of fluids and give them over-the-counter children’s painkillers for throat pain and fever.

If your child has a rash as well as a sore throat, fever or swollen glands, call a doctor. This is especially important if your child has symptoms of strep throat or if anyone at their daycare or school has had a strep infection recently.


Your child’s doctor will prescribe antibiotics to take for 10 days. This should cure the infection, though your child’s swollen glands and tonsils might take a few weeks to return to normal.

Can it be prevented?

The bacterial infection that causes scarlet fever is highly contagious. It’s spread through coughing and sneezing. A skin infection caused by strep can also be spread through contact with the skin.

Make sure to keep your infected child’s dishes, glasses and utensils, as well as their toothbrush away from those of other family members and wash them well in hot soapy water.




quotes about being single and happy 17 best happy single quotes on


I have been single now for many years By choice the main reason I wanted to Heal and recover from past abusive relationship to be confident in myself not to allow history to repeat itself, it’s been that long now that it’s just normal I have been asked “Am I not lonely or don’t I miss having a sex Life”, No I don’t But I was thinking,  maybe because of my past relationships I have convinced myself that I don’t miss these things,  Fooling myself, If this is the case what if I am missing out, I said to my daughter the other day,   “I need to get a social life, maybe get a boyfriend ” her reply was “hahahahaha don’t be silly mum” This really says it all. 😉

“Does anyone think that you can be single forever and be Happy and content”?






The loss of a loved one can bring many emotions you can go through many stages I found the one feeling, the emotion that stayed with me the longest and affected me the most was the feeling of Guilt. When my son died I can’t tell you how many times I asked myself If I had done things differently maybe my son would be here today, or Am I to blame for his death The guilt I felt was such a big part of my thoughts, life, Even when the doctors said Anything I did or didn’t do would not have changed the outcome and how I am feeling is natural grief process. which seemed like a life time to except that was correct,  I then felt I would never recover from my loss How can you smile laugh and enjoy yourself again, I was correct I have never fully recovered I don’t believe my heart will ever be whole again but when I smile and  laugh now I believe our loved ones who is looking down feel relive,  My son is still a very big part of my life we talk of him all the time of Memories or the wonder of what he would be like had he been here, Privately I still feel my loss, my grief but I no longer feel guilt I can’t change what happened in the past I can only hope my son is at peace and he knows that I love and miss him dearly.

I know there are no words I could say to anyone who has lost a child that would help or ease that pain, I shared this to say you can smile and be happy again when that happens is when you are ready, there is no time limit to grief and loss.;loss

To the those who have lost a loved one,

I Send Love, strength and the will to continue to keep fighting God bless



gejala-diabetesPlease see klsmithyour doctor if you have any of these symptoms get tested might be something of nothing  but at least you know


I have had a really bad week with my sugar Level I haven’t eaten anymore or less I hate it such a horrible feeling, A hangover without having  a drink that is just wrong